The Life of Me

Yay!! It's okay that you didn't. I don't think you have the right email :( Sorry. That's my fault. I'll send it to you. Your adventures sound like fun! I have bookmarked your blog now so I can officially be a stalker.

GRRRRARRRR... My brain hurts. So... yeah... I told you that Aaron and I decided to become official. Well... no. Kinda. He thinks we should wait. A lot because of what his and my parents have said. Which... is commendable. But... it is annoying. We were going to start officially dating a few weeks ago. And then somehow we came to the decision that we should not until the end of the summer. Along with that, we decided that we should limit our contact to each other to see what happens when we don't see and talk to each other. My mom wants me to be sure that Aaron is not a rebound guy. So we did that. And we lasted about a week. We were talking, and the subject of other girls/guys, and we decided that neither of us really wanted to date anyone else. We discussed what our relationship status was, and he said that he thought we should officially date. So we became official, and I decided that it would be okay to tell people that we were dating. That is what you generally do when you have a boyfriend, right? ...apparently not. We hung out yesterday, and then today he called me today and said that he thought we should wait. Hanging out consisted of walking around the mall, walking around clement part, and laying on the grass looking at clouds. So anyhow... he called me and told me that he thought that we should still wait until the end of the summer. Most of his reasoning is because his parents don't want him dating right now. They want him to "focus on his career". But in my head, that makes it sound like they just want him to be like Caleb, his brother. Caleb was one of those perfect sibling types. He just graduated with a 4.0 from the business school at UNC. He was involved in business clubs, he graduated with honors... the works. He sometimes even came to swing club if he isn't studying. Aaron is still a smart kid, but he isn't as entirely absorbed into school as Caleb was. Aaron is still getting good grades, but instead of straight A's, he's gotten a few that are less than that. I don't know what his grades are exactly, but they aren't bad. His parents want him to focus on his career, and not date. He says that by the end of the summer, they will be okay.
I don't think I believe him. If they want him to not date so that he can focus on school, it won't get any better when school starts. If anything, it will get worse.
My mother wants me to not start dating Aaron until the end of the summer because she wants me to be sure he isn't a rebound. I don't think that he is, a lot because it has been since February since we started "courting" and getting to know each other better, and I find myself liking him more all the time. And I like him as a person, and not just as someone who could fill my desire for a relationship.
So like I said... I respect his desire to adhere to his and my parent's wishes, but... the on and off thing doesn't work for me. It's kind of emotionally taxing. I am willing to wait until the end of the summer... I'm actually willing to wait for quite a long time for Aaron. But I need solidity. The fluctuation isn't fun.
So... in the end, we decided to meet on August 12ish and talk. I'm kind of... bla at the moment. I'm really not sure what I'm feeling. But... yeah.... that's what is going on.